right now I’m thinking of leaving this account as tomb of what was and apparently never could’ve lasted. grief is natural. there’s a lot to be ashamed of, but this is not it.-
because whatever the fuck I do, I always get crushed, glue the shattered pieces of my soul together just for them to be even harder to gather the next time I’m broken.
Alex, you were, and are, the worst and best thing that has ever happened to me. I hate you. I love you. “tvångest”. no matter how rotten you are inside, you gave me the best and worst times of my life. I am fucking done, and I’m OK with that.
Enjoy the spitefulness. I’ll give you that one; least I ain’t fuckin’ for roof.
Just realize that you are eating your own words.
“One day you will realize what you threw away.”
“You’re the worst thing that’s ever happened to me” - Marla Singer, FIght Club
